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My Chemical Romance last night... [01 Mar 2007|09:47pm]
[ mood | sore ]

Last night Samantha and I didn't get to the J.L until like 4:20. I was actually surprised it didn't take longer since the freaking Lodge was closed. We got all confused about what the hell to take once we got in there. The roads are confusing when the main thing to take you in to the city is closed. FREAKING CONSTRUCTION.

But we made it in fine. We played a game of Uno until we got bored. There were four girls in front of us who were fun to watch. Actually everyone was fun to watch. Sam and I pondered on the median age there. It probably wasn't 22. So I'm guessing I was in the top 50% certainly haha. We're assuming the median age was between 16 and 18. Sam wont be 21 until July. And I still have 8 months (and if you wanna get technical, one day) until I turn 23 (eeeeeeeeew).

People started singing Happy Birthday to someone. I started singing just cuz I was hyper.

We got inside at like 6:30 and she and I were at the barricades to the left side (Frank ended up being 10 feet away from us....and a few times Gerard was like 9.5 feet away haha...oh and Ray was 9.5 feet away too at one point...I love roamers). Anyway, I love security guards cuz they're all like super duper friendly and save lives too.

Some dude brought a huge box of water. Everyone assumed it was for us to drink. But instead the guards all took the water. Atleast those of us who were in the front got some water dumped down our throats (and our heads if we asked lol). But no one got their own bottles. Twenty minutes later a dude came in front selling beer. And there were three security guaurds in front of me and I was like "Tell me he'll come back to sell water" *shurgs* "I have a question then." "Yes?" "Why the HELL would you sell beer. We're just gonna get dehydrated and then we'll DIE!" They laughed and one of them gave me a fresh bottle of water. I was super thankful. And then this girl like a couple rows back was all like "HEY! NO! YOU DID NOT! GIVE ME WATER TOOO! PLEEEASE! IM GONNA RUSH THE STAGE!" So like ten minutes later another guard threw out a bottle of water and she caught it.

Rise Against was great. Honestly I only know the lead singer's name. When I get money again I'll have to get their cds cuz it was annoying that the only song that I knew was "Ready to Fall" (shame they didn't play "Swing Life Away" I know that one too haha). But yeah, I hadn't seen them since Warped Tour so I was stoked to see them again. I love their lyrics. And its nice they like to interact with the audience. They played for about 40 minutes too. Good amount of time.

After their set I said to Samantha "When I get home I'm gonna thank my Dad for giving my mommy his spermage. And then I'm gonna thank my mom for giving birth to me." I didn't know the guard with the brades was listening in so he was like "Oh that's great. I like you. You're a cool kid." lol I was like "Thaaaanks."

My Chemical Romance came on at about 8:30. I totally love that Gerard made his entrance on a gurney. Great way to say "yo I am here" without giving anyone warning.
It took me until they started "The Sharpest Lives" to realize that they were gonna be doing all of "The Black Parade". I was loving how they came on as The Black Parade first (loving the new costumes). I've never actually seen Gerard act effeminately before. But now that I think about it...I guess that's the theatrical side (come on...he'd be a shoe-in for some musical...then again he did play "Peter Pan" in elementary school.). When Gerard introduced "Cancer" ("1 in 3 of you have been effected by cancer in some way" - musically and statistically inclined...I love informed men) I was sure I was gonna cry. Hence me screaming "Dammit...you're gonna make me cry." And amazingly, I didn't cry at all. Again when they got into "Famous Last Words" I was sure I was gonna cry. Nope. Wrong again. After they did all those songs there was like a 5 minutes intermission.

I forgot how sexual he gets on stage. Although unlike the first time I saw the band he wasn't saying stuff like "do you want to fuck me...oh I love you baby I love you *insert moaning*). It was way more subtle this time. I think the band is aware now that their fan base also includes kids in middle school. Yes, he's a slave to the music, as am I. But I wont lie, simple girl with simple needs...if a guy is wearing tight pants...I will look. And if he's drawing attention to his ass...I will look. If he's slowly drawing his hand up his leg and lingering next to his package...I will look.

I was sure "Ghost of You" would get me crying. Didn't. I went crazy when they played "Cemetary Drive". I looooooove that song. I was not standing still (not that I was anyway mind you, but still) at all.

The only bummer...no encore. Poopy. But hey we got 90 minutes out of them and most acts only give you 60 minutes. It would have been nice to hear some stuff from "Bullets" too.

Bottom line.... AMAZING SHOW. And now that I know what to expect, if I don't get to see them in may too...I WILL CRY!!!

Hopefully that sounded like it was coming from atleast an 18 year old year old rather than 16 year old. Since when I talk about MCR it is impossible for me to sound like a 22 year old. Like I said, I fangirl hard.

My body hurts sooo bad.

Man, I wish it were yesterday. I haven't had that much fun, in MONTHS.

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[27 Feb 2007|09:56pm]
My Chem tomorrow :) Yessssss!
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You're someone who knows someone who knows someone I once knew [07 Feb 2007|02:03pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

New Fall Out Boy cd?

Buy it.

But keep in mind, it's not any better than FUCT.

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I know its hard to face all of my past mistakes [03 Feb 2007|07:17pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I just got back from Jimmy and Brandon's birthday party. It was fun. Jimmy (my cousin Kari's husband)'s family was there. Brandon (Jimmy's son)'s voice is changing. Haha. It's weird. 'Bout damn time too. The kid has been taller than me for...as long as I've known him. Like...what...4 years. Something like that.

I was playing guns with Leewin and Kyle. Or they were trying to get me play. Everytime they shot at me I was like "kevlar vests. can't kill me." Then Kyle figured he'd get me in the face. So I played dead for a few seconds and then I came back and said I was a ghost out to get revenge and I was reaching for him. He screamed and ran and then proceeded to tell me that ghosts could be killed. Haha. He's 5. What do I know, right?Leewin just play along. Not much else you can do at 2.

That was pretty much as exciting as my day got.

Oh and then I got my tax documents for 2006 from working at Victoria's Secret. Made like $416 right there. Plus there's the stuff I made working for my parents. Close to $2500.

Yeah I'm not getting anything back.

I hate taxes.

My Valentinr - x_fanatical
Get your own valentinr


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Quick little update [30 Jan 2007|05:46pm]
[ mood | sick ]

So I've been sick with the stomach flu the past two days. It really sucks. I'm so sick of my bathroom. With the amount of time I spent running to it the last of days it would make more sense to move into it. But honestly the space is cramped, lenoleum is unfortable to sleep on and theres no tv in it so I guess I'm stuck running back and forth to it. I hate that I have to be careful with what I eat knowing there's a chance I might throw it up or crap it out for that matter (oh how blubt I am).

I'm seriously gonna miss having my own bathroom when we move though. It's Cbeen a nice luxary I've had for the past 13 years. Oh well. As long as the house (however small it is) is on the lake, it's a sacrifice I will willingly make.

I see My Chemical Romance in Detroit in 29 days. I'm freaking excited.

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I don't wanna lose my head today [26 Jan 2007|07:32pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Hey! So I haven't written in this this thing in forever. Don't worry I'm not dead. I've just been going through stuff. Good and bad. Quite frankly I've just been lazy in the writing department.

What I've been up to:
1) working
2) working
3) sleeping
4) going to baby showers
5) working
6) sleeping
7) occasionally hanging out with friends
8) sleeping
9) working
10) sleeping
11) sleeping
12) sleeping
13) sleeping
14) sleeping

Maybe someday I'll actually get a life, huh? Honestly the only thing I ever look forward to is working. Oh yes...and seeing My Chemical Romance on february 28th.

Write later.

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You're just a sad song with nothing to say [11 Jan 2007|03:27pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Whenever President Bush opens his mouth I can actually feel my brain cells start dying. Maybe we should give him a lollipop and tell him to go back to Texas like a good little boy.


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This kind of life I can't afford [09 Jan 2007|07:44pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

<td align="center"> Marlana --

A dance involving little to no clothing

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

AHAHAHAHAHAHA! That made me laugh.

Well last night I dreampt I got a ride from a couple teachers that I had never seen before. One of them looked suspiciously like my 5th grade teacher. And in the dream I got a weird feeling that they weren't really gonna take me home. I woke up before I could find out.

I suppose I had that dream because I am one of those dumbasses who has gotten into a car with a stranger a couple of times before.Yeah not too bright on my part...but it turned out well. And the second (and last time it happened it was with an old couple who looked to be in their 80's). I don't do that shit anymore. In fact if a car slows down on a street corner where I am standing, I get super paranoid and then(and there's no stop sign or red lights around) I usually whip out my cell phone and act like I'm talking on it and walk/run to the nearest house/store.

Then I dreampt my cousin and her husband bought me the newest I-pod and I was downloading songs and video to it. That was fun.

There's a couple thats going to look through our house on thursday. Yay!

So I'm kind of in a bitchy ass mood because I just found out that I am going to be broke until atleast spring. :(

When you're bitchy or whiny/depressed the more recent Hanson cd from 2004 is good to listen to because its sooo depressing (gee wonder what the hell got into those guys...grow up too soon or what?!?).
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[07 Jan 2007|06:51pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I had a pretty good day today. I went to church with my grandparents today (just like I do every other sunday). But uh-oh. There's a REALLY hot alter boy there. Yipes! I was kind of getting distracted from the sermon seeing him. That kind of defeats the purpose of going to church. Oh well. I actually talked to the Reverend for the first time. I haven't met him before. Nice man. I love their choir. What I love about that church is its so welcoming. The Episcopal church is very welcoing and open. I stopped going to church at 3. My parents couldn't get me to behave (haha undiagnosed ADHD). But since I've been so stressed and helpless I felt like I was being pulled into going back..probably God leading me. It does help me.

Anyway after church I pretty much pigged out on french toast. Three slices. But it was just so good. I do love my french toast.

Well, anyway I think I'm gonna go.

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My foot is in the door [31 Dec 2006|02:20pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

I was talking to my Grandpa online and asked what he and Grandma were up to tonight and he just said "Too old for sex. Just a usual night."

Argh! I definitly wasn't meaning it like that. Ack...Thanks Grandpa.

Last night I dreampt some random girl and I were looking through Sports Illustrated trying to find pictures of Justin Verlander. Haha good times!

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God is NOT a pimp!!! [30 Dec 2006|11:31am]
[ mood | okay ]

Well, my foot is feeling tingly, it doesn't look horribly swollen and I can walk on it. But its the tingliness (is that a word?) that is bothering me. There is still some pain. Its especially in the same spot where I broke my left foot, accept its on my right foot. I'm not sure if that makes sense how I'm explaining it but whatever. I'll have to see what my mom thinks, cuz I'd like to know for sure whats up with it. Sprained or broken.

So I was watching the news last night. Wow...those iraqis don't fuck around. I hate to say it but there's a tiny part of me with mixed emotions about Saddam's execution. Of course in my anger I always said that he deserved nothing short of complete and total agony and endless torture. But when I heard about it I started thinking "well...at one point, this total fuck-up was an innocent little baby." Its better for the world that he's gone. Its time that he meets his maker. But I feel guilty that I have the whole feeling of hanging is too violent even for him. He was an awful man. I've known about nothing but the evil he's done since I was 7 years old. It just now makes it more clearer in my mind that I think lethal injection is the way to go. I'm glad he's gone, but at the same time...it wont change what he did. I guess this is one of those moments where I should listen to what my therapist said about accepting when I have conflicting emotions.

All I have to say is, when I opened the internet home page on the computer and saw the picture of his neck and face peeking out of that white shroud I wanted to barf. That is discusting. I'm thankful I live in a country where hanging is outlawed...because that is just absolutely grotesque what it does to the neck.

One more thing: That whole viewpoint that the extremists have about their martyrs getting 30 virgins in heaven or whatever it is...GOD IS NOT A PIMP!!!

I'm going now. Goodbye!

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I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine [29 Dec 2006|10:33pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

I am a dumbass! Why, you ask? Because I was rushing from my bathroom to the office to grab the phone. I tripped and landed on my right foot...all the weight of my body right on the side of it.The last time I did that it was my left foot and I broke it in two places. Um...OUCH?!?! Yeah uh..it hurts but only in one place. I guess I'll have to see tomorrow. If its swollen I guess that means another lovely lttle trip to the ER.

I think I'm gonna go drink a glass of wine, and put ice on my foot, maybe I'll freeze enough to where I wont feel any tiny bit of pain.

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Label me that's fine, I'll be somebody else [26 Dec 2006|05:34pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

My christmas pretty much rocked! I got a really cute minty-green tank top, a white sweater, a black velvet speghetti strap top (definintly for clubbing), a new pair of jeans, and a fleece pull-over hoodie thingy. Nice clothes. Then I got the A7X cd that I wanted (yeah I've been a fan for 2+ years but just now got a cd - don't be shocked I was a Blink-182 fan for 4+ years before I got one of their cds haha). Plus two movies; Troy and Elizabethtown. I've been on an Orlando Bloom kick for years, so finally got more movies. Yay!

My aunt got after me for eating three deviled eggs. Haha!

Anyway, just thought I'd say a quick hello. Hope everyone got what they wanted. :)

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I don't need a reason [22 Dec 2006|04:05pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Okay...so February 28th. IM SO FREAKING EXCITED. Samantha just ordered our tix to see My Chemical Romance (the presale is going on) at Joe Louis Arena. I'm happy now. It's been waaaaaay to long since I've last seen the guys. Oh and Rise Against is opening. They're great live, so I'm happy to see them again.

I'm going to do my christmas shopping today. FINALLY!

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Have a very merry christmas [20 Dec 2006|09:10pm]
I thought I lost my wallet when I was out with my mom. Turned out I left on the front seat. Thank God!!!

I ran into an old friend from Women's Ensemble that I haven't seen since I graduated. I so missed Simone. We're gonna hang out sometime.
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All we know is falling [16 Dec 2006|06:06pm]
[ mood | worried ]

All we know is falling.

Ahahaa. Clever title.

And I so agree.

Don't ask me to elaborate on that. I can't.

I'm freaking lucky I inherited all those survivor skills from my mom.

Because otherwise...

this would send me to the psych ward.

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Happy birthday to meeeeeeeee [02 Nov 2006|02:26pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

If I'm a little weirded out about now being 22...I can't imagine how I'll feel when I'll turn 30 in 8 years.

And its snowing....

Anyway, sorry for the lack of updatage. The laptop is being lame so no internet at home until my mom feels well enough to help me figure out how to fix it.

So almost two weeks ago my mom was in the hospital extremely sick. It's not like she was on her deathbed or anything but she was really friggin' ill. Major blood infection. And to top it off neither her liver, kidneys, gastro-intestines or her lungs were functioning properly. So yeah she was just really...not well. But she's home. Her energy is almost back.

Okay so the world series...I pretty much cried when we lost. And don't ask me how I recently discovered I love watching baseball. I have no clue how that happened.

My class is going pretty well. I'm happy to be back at school.

Yesterday was fuuuuun. I laid around watching Fuse all day. It was like an early b'day present that there was all this MCR suff on for me to watch. Dammit I can't wait till they do their full U.S. tour. I have to see them again. It's been like 16 months. Too friggin long. I'm going through withdrawals. So yeah I also ordered two movies off pay-per-view. The Lake House. Cuuuuute movie. Keanu Reeves = love. And then I ordered Final Destination 3. I almost puked. It was lovely. That Ryan Merriman is such a cutepie. And he still hasn't lost the baby face. What is he? Like 20 by now? And the way Alexz Johnson died on there was gross. I don't like nail guns to begin with. That was just yucky. But now I totally get why they say not to take cameras or loose objects on roller coasters. Although I'm not sure it would completely disband the cars. But Im sure its a possibility. Now I know why I stay away from weight equipment. Yucky! Oh and I had a lovely dream last night. Me...coming home from work. My bed on glass in the middle of the pond. To get to it, I had to risk losing many many limbs to get to it. It was swell.

I love my cell phone. :) It makes me happy.

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE the new My Chemical Romance record. You must buy it. Or you will all die a devious death (sorry channeling my father again).

Anyway just thought that I would give a quick update. You'll hear from me again next tuesday. :)

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You like the adrenaline rush just a little too much [16 Oct 2006|12:40am]
[ mood | okay ]

Well friday sucked balls.

Mom had to go to the hospital. She's got a major kidney infection. I feel really bad for her. She's in so much pain. In fact she's having a hard time doing the real estate magazine. So I just spent 6 and a half hours doing a page and a half for the first time EVER. The layout, pictures, text, everything. It's so frustrating. Now I totally get why my mom was crying so much when she first started doing it. I actually started crying. Its freaking crazy. I know some people are like "why would THAT make you cry?". I sincerely hope NONE of you ever have to do a real estate advertising magazine.

Saturday my Grandma (dad's mom) got sent to the hospital. She's got shingles on her face. I went and saw her with my dad yesterday. OMG...I felt so bad for her. It seriously looked like the left side of her face was just peeling in like thick layers (think major sunburn multiply by about 10). She said it was hurting so bad. But they put her on drugs. But of course its near her eye too. So an eye specialist has to come in and take a look at her eyes to make sure the shingles aren't anywhere near it. If they are, there's the possibility the shingles could make her blind. I don't know much about shingles except that they are in the chicken pox family.

How about those Tigers? YES! I'm really excited for them.

So after visiting Grandma in the hospital last night I went and got more minutes on my phone. I picked up the new issue of Cosmo, and got Teddy Geiger's cd. I pretty much love the whole thing. That guy has sooo much talent. It's insane. Oh yeah...his eyes...damn. Yeah yeah...I have too much time on my hands.

Class starts tuesday. YAY!

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WTF? [06 Oct 2006|12:28pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

What kind of world are we living in when a guy goes and shoots ten amish school children?!? And the media is being retarted not giving the families enough privacy.

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no more AIM :( [02 Oct 2006|12:11pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

So yesterday Katie and I went to get our NFG tix. They were gooooone. Dammit! Oh well. So then we looked online to see if we wanted to see anyone else. Dashboard Confessional is playing at EMU. But of course tix were $27.50. I only had like $29 and some odd cents on me. And you know you're gonna get slapped with extra charges when you order tix. That was out. Less Than Jake...the closest city they're playing in is Cleveland or Toronto. Nah... She asked if I like Hellogoodbye "uh...not really". Then we saw Good Charlotte was playing Clutch Cargos. We were tempted..pretty tempted...just for something to do. But then we came to our senses. I don't want my money going towards a band whose (I'm not sure I'm using that word in the right context - fuck it) music I like..just less than I used to, and who has a couple members I have no respect for as people. Would you go up to an asshole and hand him $20 just because he can sing or play a guitar? No! So that was like $29 and some odd cents I had to spend.

We went to the flea market to look around at some random stuff. Then we went to the
Raven for coffee. Good times.

Bah...my parents told me that I'm only allowed to use the laptop to go online. So goodbye AIM...I will miss you.

Maybe I can get my mom to let me download the messanger onto this thing.

Anyway this keyboard is a pain, so I'm leaving. Bye!

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